Wednesday, March 30, 2005

Bitches, Gripes, and Complaints.

I have plenty. The sugery went well and my neck is healing pretty good.

OK, this is where I begin to go off........

I fuckin hate this shit! I don't know why I keep doing it. Every single time my life begins to straighten out something happens to fuck it up. Then I have to end up starting over again. FUCK THIS!!!! I'm out.

Thursday, March 24, 2005

After this morning I'm don't know what's going on.

I'm going to be getting surgery today nothing serious but surgery is always ment to be taken seriously. So I may not be here at the computer after the procedure. We'll see and I try to keep all my blogg fans updated LOL. Any way if I'm not here I'll probally be playing Playstation 2 or listening to Mushroomhead. Who knows Only Time Will Tell.

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

Busy, Busy, Busy, and did I Mention Busy?

I want to keep this updated day to day but so far today I've been quite busy. There will be more later when I have more time.

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

Today was a good day

For a change today was a quiet day around here I believe I was in need of one. It helped me collect my thought and even brought about new ones, good or bad I'm not quite sure yet but only time will tell that.

I'm going to have a lot of time to think about the happenings of my life right now and in the future at least for the next year. I'm only hoping that complications don't arise as bad as they have in the past. I was reading a friend of mine's Blog and she was talking about how we used to party and do copious amounts of drugs while we were referred to as "Candy Ravers" I could say that I miss those days but as I get older I understand that life isn't one big party. Although it doesn't hurt once in a while..... :-). With that note in a way I regret doing what I had done as far as the experimental side with the drugs, because when I did that not only did I hurt my self but I hurt others and I regret doing that to other people. Due to my decision and my influence there were others that decided to effect there lives with the uses of Ecstasy, LSD, Shrooms, and Ketamine. Some of them were effected in a way that only I can see. My self I know that I'm not mentally stable and I will never be the way I used to be when I was an innocent child. I've become more withdrawn from society, less talkative, and extremely moody. Many of the people that I know of reading this Blog have seen or even worse experienced my mood swings.


I'll be back tomorrow sometime. Later

I think I have found something to do.

My field of work is rather repetitive. But as you all know the News changes. I recently begun a news letter for all of the people I work with and I found that to be quite relaxing to do even though some issues were harder to come up with. But there was some filler in there but all in all I think they will be happy with what I have for now. I think it will also help raise morale a little bit and every bit helps. I'm glad that I had found something as interesting to do it helps pass the time and breaks up the monotony of micro-management, I'm let to do this at my own pace and I plan on doing much more with news letter. Well till next time.

Monday, March 21, 2005

Yesterday as Today.

I've begun to look to the past. Mostly at the many mistakes that I have made, some I truely regret and others I've learned from. From here on out I'm going to do my best to live in the future. What's going to happen with my life once I return from my deployment? Am I going to go to school? Will I move to Central Pennsylvania? Will I move else where in the United States?, Or Will I just drink myself into a bottle and not find my way out of it? I don't know what'll happen just yet but I don't plan on that last one (although it may be fun). Well the time has come for me to see about getting things done for now.

Sunday, March 20, 2005

One Hour Later

OK. One hour has past and I'm back for now. Today I got a Small Pox Vaccine, with that and all my others it's just one step closer to immortality right? As my mind burns..... There seams to be a problem with the way alot of things work right now. There is a huge Micro-Management problem with in my area of expertise everyone has to get the last word and no one knows what to say. When you want them to stop they never do. That is why I've decided to make time to do what I feel is necessary. Some of the people that will read this will know about my temperment and anger problems others complete strangers that won't understand, But durring the last few days I've been quite angry due to the prior issue in this post. So far the brightest idea by one of the micro-managers is that everyone needs to talk to me and try to figure out why I'm mad. Yea I'm laughing after that one too. They don't need to talk to me to figure it out they either will figure it out on there own or I'll let them know one way or another. Perhapps there will be a screening of these post by others here at my job and then maybe they will understand. I'll leave this mangled post now and see if the micro-managers have anything for me to micro-manage.

A buddy of mine told me about this site.

Yup he did his blogspot is I though I would mention that..... But as it's titled ----- I'm confused already ----- I don't even know what to put in here I'll end up rambeling on about nothing once again so I'll leave this as is for now.